Background info:
(VK is allergic to mosquito bites. He starts scratching it and on repeatedly doing so, the bite gets infected and one after a dose of antibiotics, life gets back to normal.)
Last week the same thing happened and this time it was on the knee... Even after all our preventive measures, his knee was swollen and he was limping and finding hard to walk. I had to rush to the doctor and I was really sad making him walk even in that state but didn’t mention anything to him.
After the visit to doctor and pharmacist, when I put him in the car, he asked me or rather told me below.
In a totally matter of fact tone (with no emotion at all)
“Amma after the baby comes out of your tummy, you will carry me like before”
My heart broke a million times that moment and my eyes well up every time I think about it.
I still wonder if he actually read my mind because I was feeling totally guilty not able to carry him or if he was in pain and just saying it.
Whatever it was... I am carrying the guilt now and can’t wait to carry my first baby like before!
5 comments:
Aww, he is so mature re. He read your mind without you speaking a word about it.
Don't feel guilty. Be open about your feelings to him. He will understand.
Awww! hugs darling.....dont feel guilty rey....I loved that header :)
Aren't you the sweetest mother .all mothers are sweet know. Hugs hugs. Pass on my hugs to the little one too.
awww.. kids seem to know what we think:| this incident reminds me of Vyas's reaction when Varun was made to sleep between me and him. he asked me if i would pull him closer in a hug after varun grows up.. i remember crying, like for hours!! hugs sweetheart.. He understands that its a part of his graduating to 'anna' status:) And shooo to his allergy!
@Seema: He is quite mature for his age Seema.and it makes it harder.. I dont know if he meant it as a statement or if he was really feeling bad and it just came out that day !
@RM: Guilt is always present. I think its a motherhood curse.
@Tharani: All mothers are sweet Tharani. Very true. I think its an inbuilt quality.
@Vidya:Aww.. I would have cried for hours too.. Hugs to Vyas anna and you. VK loves his anna status but I dont know how much he understands !!
Aiyyo this allergy is a big pain.. madras layum same thollai for him... sydney la yum same thollai
Post a Comment